Hello bloggers! It’s SO pretty outside, ummm, I love days like this. I wish it was like this every day of the year. I just came home from the doctor , haven’t been feeling too hot last wk. and this wk. I have bronchitis.I sound like the devil and kinda been acting like him so I decided instead of an exorcists maybe my family  doctor should check me out first. He subscribed antibiotics,and steroids. Oh yea, that will puff me up really nice.He said drink a lot of water,take this, and go to bed. I’ll take the medicine, but I really don’t want to go to bed. I shouldn’t complain at least I’m not possessed. I’m seriously thinking about going outside and sitting on the patio in the sunshine for a while. I sit out their and read my bible sometimes. It’s a great way to be still and reflect on God and His will. Well off to take this medicine.Praise God for medicine. I’m never sick, that’s a good thing because I’m not very good at it. Horrible patient!  Have a great day!     Becky

ok,so it was another late night, just thinkin about how God loves His (chillin) especially when they are at the   lowest places in life. He is always seeking the runt of the litter,( like myself.)Sometimes I have trouble staying on the right path,or just choose not to.  Iknow I should take this very seriously. Sometimes it’s just so easy to be complacent  in my  faith, and I’m a bad girl. I know that I need to try harder. What is so amazing is when I stay focused on Him , He does set my path straight,all I have to do is close my eyes,pray, and draw Him near(to my soul) and just let Him love me. He is beyond words.   

Holy be the one who has lost his way,I’m right here beside to make your path straight.Take my hand now don’t cry one more tear oh My child ,My holy one, just draw me near Holy be the one who is meek, so poor, I just need your  heart I am  totally yours..I’m right here beside you to make your path straight take My hand now  don’t cry one more tear oh  My child, My holy one ,just draw Me near. Holy be the one with no place to call home. I’m right here beside you, I won’t let you fall.I’m right here beside you to make your path straight take my hand now don’t cry one more tear oh My child ,My holy one, just draw Me near. Holy be the one who is hungry, and tired, I will give you peace like a river you’ll hunger no more. I’m  right here beside you to make your path straight. take my hand now , don’t cry one   more tear oh  My child ,My holy one ,just draw me near. Holy be the one who is broken, full of hate ,I’m right here beside you to make your path straight.Take my hand now don’t  cry one more tear oh My child, My holy one, just draw Me near I’m right here beside you ,just draw Me near.   TheEnd.   Author:Me                                love, Becky

Well, great day,wonderful time with family and friends today. We had a cookout with lots of great food,and cookies! And more cookies! My brothers son got married yesterday,and today we continued to celebrate,and just hang out and reflect on the wedding, share pictures and stories about the big day. My brother is a great guy,he had a lot of old high school friends at the wedding a few from college also. Growing up he was the big brother and I was the little sister. So a lot of these guys,practical grew up at our house. They laughed all night long, talking about things they used to do. Amazing they are even here to talk about it! They also laughed about how they all used to just make me nuts. Some wanting to date the little sister,but my brother always very protective, and said I was completely off limits! He stood firm on this and they all just knew better. I eventually ended up having several brothers, all of whom thought that they were my dad. There was one individual that wasn’t there. I asked my sister in law about he and his family today and she said they had not seen them in a long time.He is from Zionsville and she said the last time they were together they were dissapointed because all he cared about was money, cars, summer homes in different states, his business,and his friendships were based on just materialistic things. This guy, I had dated in college. He is still in Zionsville and to me this was how he always was. His family is very ,very, very, well to do and he stands to inherit all. He himself, after graduation didn’t even need to work ever. He owns a business there, and his wife works also. He(without sounding full of myself had a huge crush on me.) I dated him now and then but always knew how important “things” were to him. This was not a good thing ,and I finally just didn’t go out with him anymore. Fine for him, but just not me. My parents were so put out with me,you see they thought this was the perfect one for me. I would never want for anything. I love them with all my heart but some of the worst advise I ever received was from my mother. She said “you can love a rich one as well as a poor one are you nuts”!This I totally disagree with. He was so spoiled I found him repulsive. I still cannot believe this is advise from some one who loved me.I like to ramble, sorry. The point is he wasn’t at the wedding cause they finally saw what I had know for years,but didn’t ever say anything cause they were all friends. It’s not my place to judge him anyway,thats Gods job and he will some day, do just that. My family still thinks Im nuts. they haven’t got a clue. No dis- respect they just were unaware of the love he had for himself. Sad Huh?It’s not about cars,houses, boats , elaborate vacations, who you know and party with, nannies, or your name in the paper, or in  the news. It’s about who you are,who you really ,really are. Just you stripped down to your very soul. Standing there alone ,lookin from the inside out, who you are. My mother also gave me another bit of bad advise, and I repeat myself, I love her with all my being, she said”Rebecca be careful,you smile all of the time and are so kind, you must remember that one day, someone might confuse your kindness with stupidity”. Yeah ,put that in your pipe and smoke it! At the time ,I didn’t understand what she meant, but I do now that I’m older. She has changed over time, I married a wonderful guy.She has learned to love him even if he isn’t a billionaire monetarily, he is personally. So I think she learned a little herself. Well now, it’s late, I need to read my bible a little bit before I close my eyes so here’s to a wonderful night of dreams that make you love and laugh, and I’ll blog you later,   HUGS TO YOU ALL~ Becky

It was just a beautiful day for a wedding today! My nephew got married today in Mooresville IN. We all had a great time. I got to see a lot of old friends,we haven’t seen for a long time. People that we know and love, from all over like Miami Fl, Phoenix AZ,Kansas City MO, Boulder CO. It was great. We usually go to the Indy 500 parade, it’s been a tradition with our family for years. So we missed it this year, but with good cause. I love my nephew dearly,and am so happy for him. Every time there is an event like this it always brings on the tears. My dad died 4years ago July. He loved his grandson so very much,and was so proud of him,so without him there today hurt my heart. My nephew was dancing with his mother, ( mother son dance)   and he turned around with his back facing me. His hand was resting over his mother’s shoulder, and there on his finger was a ring,plain with a black cross in the middle. Well ,I nearly fell off my chair, It was my dad’s ring! I just couldn’t believe it. His mother was wearing this white sparkly top,and the ring just laying across the fabric of that top, well it glistened.It was if my dad was right there with Mason, (my nephew )on his very special day. So I went outside and cryed cause we miss him so much. He was the life of the party ,and a great dad. I know,I know,he is in a much better place, but I still miss him, and need him ,even if this is selfish. Sometimes I get lucky and dream about him.  Well better go, I have out of town company here for a race-day cookout tomorrow. They might miss me.   God Bless,      Becky

Just a few min. before american idol crowns the new rockstar! We are so excited,I’m having a few friends over to watch and just hang out for a while. This has been the best year ever for this competition. I was just sure that Cook was gonna take it, but now I’m not so sure. Archuleta was amazing last night! I love Cooks style, he really nows how to connect with the audience. Wow! I guess we will know soon, so I don’t know if I should make cookies,or just open up a bunch of candy and make popcorn. Hmmm? Maybe all 3.  I don’t watch alot of TV ,but I love this show,It amazes me how people can just get up there and sing. I would just croak if I had to do that. I’m a bit shy,my daughter sings all the time, at church and coffee houses and such,she just loves the stage. I almost  get sick when I see her get up there like she owns the place. She didn’t get that talent from me that’s for sure. She sang on the Smiley show and has done a benefit or 2, I always go, but I’m usually a nervous wreck. She also does alot of weddings. Speaking of weddings, I just remembered, I get to do a reading at a wedding this wk.end my nephew is getting married and ask me to do this reading. I better get on that,right after american idol. Have to go now someones life is about to change drastically! Later, Becky   Candy, cookies, and popcorn!!! ( I know, lame blog sorry,I’ll get better later)Ok,I’m back I’m just thrilled for Mr. Cook! I’m happy for Mr. Archuleta also,he is set for life. God has great plans for these 2 no doubt. This was the best  American Idol show ever,I love George Michael! Just got news about Steven Curtis Chapman’s family tragedy. I am totally without words,heartbroken for them all. They are at the top of my prayer list, healing, and comfort being my prayer. Hoping the media gives them space and respect they need. Well, better run, gotta work on that reading for sat. It’s a beautiful day! God bless,  Becky

Well, It’s been a week to remember, God has once again blessed us with a wonderful gettaway with family and friends. We’re leaving in the morning, heading to Nashville, then on to Indy Sun Morning.Spending some time away from crazyness has been refreshing, in that we had a little time to reflect on whats important in life and focus  on our God.Time alone to thank Him for just loving us like He does. When we get back to Indy Larry will continue to interview for a couple of different companies, he is interested in. Praying for God to be specific about where He wants Larry to be. Oh we got to spend the day at a airforce base today in Pensecola, my cousin is in the airforce and we we’re so excited we got to see her! We learned alot about the armed forces. Pretty cool stuff! Oh buy the way, If you are going to Fl soon, don’t expect to eat any grouper, because I ate all the grouper the gulf had to offer this wk. Sorry bout ya, try the shrimp. Well gotta get going,I need to pack a few things,and go say goodbye to the ocean. It’s been great. Pray for safe travel. Later, Becky

Hi blog people, last night I couldn’t sleep. Too much sun maybe, I’m not sure why. Remember the song This Little Light Of Mine, well it was stuck in my head at midnight. I got up and decided I should write a post about it.     This lil light of mine Im gonna let it shine,my brothers and my sisters,I’m gonna let it shine,let it shine let it shine ,Come on now let it shine!!! forgetting myself I get lost in you Lord,my Father ,my Savior,my Friend.  Let me shine ,,gonna shine ,gonna shine. Holding fast to you Lord your promise is free. The blood you have shed, has washed us all clean and this little lights gonna shine ,Come on now Lord, let it shine! I close my eyes I see an empty tomb ,You’ve risen God, and we know that you live! I’m alone with you God you  let me come in, my Father, my Savior, my Friend.I close my eyes now I see You fade your blood soaked hair,it covers Your face ,You did all of this to cover my sin ,my Father ,my Savior,my Friend. I close my eyes,the heavens fall down, the whole wide world in the palm of Your hand! I can only imagine what that day will be like ,So I’m hangin on tight Lord just lettin it shine,Iclose my eyes and I see your hand in mine, Let it shine, let it shine , land of mine I’m gonna let Him shine!!!The End!     that was fun,  Becky………………………………………………………………………………………………….. your the best,full package!

Hey everyone, today is a much better day,sorry if I brought you down with the last post. It was just a glimpse of a very dark day with depression.  I thought this blog was so lame when I first started it, but ya know what , It’s been kinda fun. Some times it’s easier to lay down your thoughts on here,your more true to yourself. If you were to actually know me you would never hear something like this come from my mouth, I’m actually kinda shy. I don’t like to  talk about myself,I’d rather talk about you,and whats going on in your life. I’ve found a   house/dog sitter for next wk,so I’m headed for the beach. Sometimes ya just need to get away for a while. Destin FL being my destination. Can’t wait! I wanted to go on a Christian music cruise later this month but family and friends insist I go wth them now. So maybe next year we can do a this cruise. Connersvine, a Christian band from Indiana is going to be there, I can’t even imagine…Connersvine and the ocean?  All at one time? WOW. You should try and go see them if you can, or check them out here www.Connersvine.com. Great band ,Great guys!  Have you ever had a moment where God just ask something of you and you have no idea why?  When God repeats  Himself 3 times it is very important, well try every day for a year. I guess I better listen up.It’s hard to explain,but I’ll try. Two of these guys from Connersvine came to the church where I attend a little over a year ago,It was an act of God that I was even there that day. Something happened that A.M. that should have kept me from going,but with the extreme pull from some family members I ended up in church that morning ,needless to say with an attitude that needed some major adjustment. An attitude that kept me from even participating in communion.My attitude was less than worthy of taking part in something that represents Jesus broken body, and the blood He shed for the mess II’ve made. So, I sat there and half way listened to these guys sing. One plays football,and one is kinda more of a rocker. So I said to my daughter, Ok…. “who plays football and who is the friend”, not knowing who was who,and just going by what my daughter had previously told me about why I just (had to go! )She looked at me with THE LOOK ,you know, the look you get when you know someone has just about had it! So she pointed out to me who was Hunter ,and who was Chris. They sang, and were great. Afterward ,she wanted to stay and buy a CD,there again my attitude when I saw that line? well ,ya know.  I stayed in line with her and bought a CD, said hi to Chris, Hunter was busy so then we left. Now, this is where it gets a little crazy. I get in my car slip in the CD and took off to meet someone for lunch, I didn’t get but about a mile down the road and tears just start pouring! I have to pull over and dry my eyes, and I could Just hear GOD say ,I need you to support them. He spoke right to my heart ! Not the first time this has happened. Not once did He say this, but every day since !So now I’m thinkin WHAT? Come on Lord, they are doing just fine they don’t need my help, You must have me confused with someone else!! Someone who knows something about music,or who is in the business! I can’t help them! But every day He is just so presistant ,you know like a 4 yr. old who just won’t get off a subject. So this is what I do, I pray for this band everyday, they hold a very special place in my heart.When God puts something in your heart He really puts it there ,and theres no doubt what so ever where it comes from.  So, ….this is why I am such a supporter of Connersvine’s mission to reach people for Christ. A Mission that God has put these rockstars on !! I’ve been to several of their concerts,but have never really stayed to talk afterward. Pictures, autographs,….. that’s probably because I’m always thinkin, they have to stay long enough without me adding to that long line of fans,I’m sure they would like to get home to their families. So just going ,and supporting them how ever I can is what I do.  I pray for their ministry daily. I’m sure they are just crushed that I don’t stay for just one more picture, or just one more autograph!!! LOL I get to see them one more time this yr.  June 30,I think,and then I won’t see them again until next Spring.So  I’m hoping they don’t think I’m a stalker or some weirdo and are scared of me. LOL That would be sooo funny!!! Just doing what God won’t let go of.  So if you read this Connersvine ,you should comment me, and let me know that you understand Devine intervention LOL!If He wants this of me ok, He has done plenty for me! You won’t however ,see me “rockin out “in the isle at a concert,  No ,not even for the second coming .I do have some dignity ,I have to  draw the line somewhere. Well,better go, Im in the middle of some laundry, and I’ll talk to you later.GOD Bless you,     Rebecca …….P.S. sometime I will tell ya just what kind of things God does to get my attention,for Connersvine, and some other missions He as asked me to Chair. OH boy.

This is just a little bit of writing I did late tonight,I mean this morning,2:39 AM. I suffer from depression,and was crying when I went to bed,so I got up and put my feelings on paper,sometimes that will help……  Father in heaven can you hear my prayer,I’m so in need of your love.Theres a  room full of people,laughter and fun,but still Father I’m all alone.Oh Father in heaven can you  hear my prayer,I’m so in need of your love, the days are so empty and so full of dark clouds,oh Father just please call me home,oh Father just please call me home.~~~~~~~~~I dream of the day when theres no more of this pain,this emptyness that owns my soul,  can’t have what I want,  don’t want what I have this whole world is so screwed up and wrong ,Father please just  say I can come home,please won’t you let me come home,Oh Father in heaven can you hear my prayer,just reach down and hold me close,you part the Red Sea and make mountains lay down ,please Father come rescue me.please Father rescue me~~~~~~~Oh Father in heaven can you hear my prayer, could you please come and dry all my tears,just to know you are here and You feel all of my pain I know now that it won’t be long ,I’ll be standing in front of your bright golden gates,oh Father you have  come…take me home ? Now the pain is leaving the tears are all dryed,but Father  I still want to come home,but as long as I’m here, this place you call earth oh Father please don’t leave my side, oh Father stay close by my side.Oh Father in heaven can you hear my prayer, Thanks for all that you bring to this life, I know now Father that you’re right by my side as you calm,  all emotions subside ,just please oh my  Savior just stay here tonight~~~~ Father always, be by my side.       Author: Becky                  just a note (I can’t have what I want)  aka- a life free of depression, (I don’t want what I have)  aka-(living with, and dealing with depression)    (This has nothing to do with materialism.)     thanks, becky                                                                   

      P.S.     You never would guess this,I always wear a smile.