I have an old schedule from my past job right here on my desk. I think I should maybe put it in a plastic slip cover and put it on my bulletin board rght here in front of my face. This way when I think I’ve had a bad day I can look up and remember what a bad day really looks like. Good idea? I think so. Good mornin. It is Sat. Jan.31st!! my least favorite month. Gone, well almost. I could just skip this month altogether every year! It’s so cold and damp outside. The dogs got me up early this mornin, and I opened the door to let them go potty and the cold air nearly took my breath away! I’m awake now! Even before coffee. Good grief  it feels like 30 below! I used to live in South Bend and I swore there was no colder air not even in Kalamazoo, but I need to rethink that!! Hubby is gone doing some auditing for Ramada….over night. He does this every wk end Fri. Sat. and Sun. night. Yuck!! He isn’t here to warm up my bed for me before I get in there!! I think this bed is getting bigger! I know that sounds lame but the darn thing seems to swallow me up!  I  am so thankful for a bed to sleep in at night,and a roof over my head. There are so many without and the numbers just keep growing. Mr. Ballard wants them off the street he says they make our city look bad. He will probably start having them arrested soon. Today, Beggars For The Poor will be down there doing their best to help in any way that they can,starting with a hot breakfast,coffee and juice,then they will give out a plastic grocery bag with snack crackers and cookies and a bologna sandwich for later tonight. Great organization to be a part of. Being the hands of God. People no different than you or I, people just really down on their luck.Sure you have a handful that prefer life this way and that’s ok. They love like no other could ever love. They look forward to coming down and just shootin the breeze. Laugh and talk and hug and check on those serving. I wonder who is serving who here!! lol.We took garbage bags down last time,they carry the ones they have till they are ripping and their stuff starts to fall out so a new garbage bag is so helpful.Blankets and candles,candles keep the rats away at night. Gloves, hats, and socks. Lots and lots of socks!!  Well I think I’ve been on here too long and need to go check on the coffee,smells good! I hope you have a day full of sunshine and are as warm as toast!! LUVS and HUGS, Rebecca xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox  ~a bit later    k? k.

Good Fri. afternoon blog world! Well as we approach another wk. end I find myself wondering what on earth happened to the week? This week a stressful one ,still flew by unnoticed until all of a sudden.. gone. The sun it shining down on the sparkling snow and is almost blinding. A Good Thing!! Don’t forget the sunglasses, you need them today! YIPPEE!! Sunny days are so inspiring ! Cold though, a big 18 outside. Still one day over the wk. end we are gonna sled,I guess we will have to bundle up! brrrrr . Celebrated a new job interview a bit too much last night. Feeling it big time today. Poor judgement, I will never do that again!! Have I said that before? I don’t drink much at all I guess I am a bit of what they call a “light weight”. Stupid word  for someone anything but light! Oh well, God forgive me for my poor judgement and my ignorance to not being a bit more responsible. So I’m off to the grocery store to stock up  on some goodies for the Super Bowl Sunday. I may watch some of it. I am cheering for Arizona because I really like Kurt Warner. #13!! Plus I don’t think they have ever won before!! If you get to go more power to ya!! I’ve never been to a super bowl, but there is one here in 2012 so who knows. It’s something every one should do once in their life time,sorta like the Indy 500. I’ve done that several times.I’m not a sports fan at all with  the exception of our Indianapolis Colts! I love them. But some things in life you just need to do!! If you get to go have a great time enjoy the sun and the moon and the stars and of course the game!!  LUVS and HUGS ,  Rebecca  xooxoxoxoxox prayers.

Hi. I have some amazing news, I had a phone call this morning from a group of Doctors on the South side and they need some help! Someone is leaving their practice and they need a replacement. They got my name from family that also works for them. I am totally stunned!! I have been searching for something like this for a while now. I interview next week sometime! I think I am gonna go put on my snow boots, oh by the way I found them, and do a cartwheel front yard in the freekin snow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YIPPEE!! Maybe this will be the answer I’ve so impatiently been waiting for!! This job is away from the other people that work there, it sits out front sorta like when you walk into a hospital and there is a desk with someone giving directions in the foyer. Like that ,only the job is for schedulingappointments for different kinds of x-rays.Ct. scans and the like. YIPPEE!! HOt Dog!!! I’ve been praying for guidance.  We’ll see. Great money and insurance too!! Praise God! Now if I can just get through the interview without looking like a complete idiot!  Yes I Can!! Been watchin Bob The Builder!! Can I Fix It?  Yes I Can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can I screw it up totally? YES I CAN!!! No just kidding I will nail it!  Just like the Bob!   I Hope everything is going well with this day, and praying for calm while decisions are being made. And also for some Patience here, I’m going crazy! Waiting and watching to here great news!!!!! It will happen!!  Uncertainty can and will make you crazy till youscream!!!! It will all work out eventually,it always does. Breathe in, breathe out. maybe a little yoga. Eat,sleep and work out daily. And pray for me as I do for you daily. Yes I am naive, but I am learning to be sent out amongst worldly people again. It’s been a while,and things have gotten considerably worse over the past few years.Satan has been hard at work. LOTS of LUVS N HUGS  Rebecca   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox keep on keepin on.     ~later?

Well now, it’s 4:05 am. and I’m up with another headache! This is starting to be a bit annoying. I am just sure this winter weather has something to do with it. I woke up at 2:30 and felt a burning sensation and realized I better hurry and take something or I would be headed to the hospital for morphine injections! I am a permanent fixture there,they know me by name and give great service. They see me coming and whisk me right back and shoot me with morphine and then it’s lights out ! Wake up feeling fine. Wasted but fine.It’s starting to let up now, a couple of Excedrin migraine and a cup of coffee and I’m feeling it start to ease up a bit! My doctor is so compassionate I think mostly because his wife suffers with this very same thing. I have medication he has prescribed for me, but you have to take it when you feel the first sign of it coming on. The trouble is I wake up with it and it is normally to late. If I take it while in the middle of a headache it makes me throw up and gets me no where. Today I could just feel it coming on and opted the excedrin over the prescription,because the prescription makes me sleep the entire day. I hate that! So now I’m feeling much better and I’m gonna go crawl back into my warm bed and say a little prayer. and a big prayer. LUVs and HUGs, Rebecca  xoxxoxoxoxox nightey night!

Good evening, well I’m all plowed out and kickin back for the evening. I realized today that I’ve totally screwed up. I took a job a month or so back and I’ve tried and tried to convince myself that it was perfect and just right for me. Now after re-examining and praying about this I know I am totally in the wrong place. I feel like a complete failure. I tried to like it and sometimes I truly did, I just feel I have been mis-placed for some reason (not sure why) I enjoy the people I consult with but the employees do nothing but gossip about each other and are so darn mean to each other. I just don’t enjoy that at all. Management is a bit shady,and a  bit worrisome to me. Is there any place on this earth where people love each other? People who honestly care about each other and want to help each other succeed in what they do? So I have decided to resignn my 7.00 pr hr. to an ill legal immigrant from Mexico and try my hand at something else. Does it matter who replaces me? No,…. I don’t care who ever wants it or needs it. She will be wonderful at it. Very nice gal. Does it matter that she is illlegal? Maybe, I don’t know. I wish I did but I have no harsh feelings. I feel God pulling me,leading me out of here and on to something helpful somewhere else. I’m just gonna keep on prayin until I hear or feel His calling. My family has supported this decision 100% and they are thrilled. We”ll  see. They like me being home. I was just trying to help out a little during the winter months. What’s up with all this talk about Jessica Simpson? People getting all nasty because she gained some weight? For real people, who cares? Tony maybe ,but what’s that have to do with us? I get so irritated at the stupid media ! Leave the girl alone,she is so sweet and pretty.Why should the public care what she weighs? For once the public needs to look at the heart.Just once! OHHHHHH, don’t even get me started!! OK , now I am gonna go and spend some time alone with my Hero,Jesus. I need to ask Him a few questions like 2 or 10. and thank Him for this beautiful snowy day and my very special friends! I think Idol is on, Oh well,I can catch it next wk.  Dream well blog peekers, LUVS andHUGS, Rebecca xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox  Sleep tight! xoxoxox  ~later

Yeah! 12 inches of snow home! We needed some fun to fall on us here in Indy!! I’ve missed this picture!! So there is a bit much to play in as far as sledding or making a snowman, but soon some will melt down and then we can have  at it! Snowed completely in. I just called the lawn service and they are coming to do the driveway and sidewalks and patio. YIPPEE!! There’s something about not being able to get out. Even if I don’t need to go anywhere I like to know I can if I want to. Sorta like wanting something you can’t have,If you know you can,… then the desire goes away! Mind over matter type thing. Right?  OK. so now I need to make a decision weather to continue with this job I’ve started or continue to search for something different. The job is like stepping into an episode of the sitcom Earl. I will say there is never a dull moment butttttt, the atmosphere is much to be desired. I could make a lot more money down the street at the strip club and bar (same atmosphere) but I  would still leave every night with my head spinning and my jaw on the ground!! Not a happy place for me to be. As a citizen of the USA is it my duty to report illegal immigrants? I just can’t bring myself to do that. I know if I was Dwight from the Office I would have no problem, but I’m not Dwight. Sooo maybe I should just forget it and leave things alone. Well, Better go get dressed and get busy. Have a great day,snowbunnies!!! Tell someone you love them today!!!   LUVS and HUGS, Rebecca  xoxoxoxoxoxoxox 

Get over here and help find my boots! 

Day, snow bunny bloggers! So once again we are supposed to get slammed with some snow. Ummm …I’m thinking maybe I might believe it this time. Not sure. I’m looking formy old snow boots just in case. I want to build a huge snowman before the winter ends. Not that I enjoy the winter months,but I figure if we are gonna have some snow,why not have some fun? Maybe we will get enough to get the sleds out,we have a great park not far from here and we will definitely have to sled once this year. There have to be some perks for living in Indiana!! Snow boarding and sledding being 2.Reading Bob Kravitz ”comics” 3.  It’s snowing on the Southeast side now,it’s actually really pretty. It muffels all the sound out here,it’s so quiet and still. Nice dinner tonight Spaghetti with lots of cheese,garlic bread, and salad,alittle bit of wine and some candle light it’s gonna be great. Someone should write a song about that..instead of a little bit of Chicken Fried. Yeah. Well, gotta to go ,I’m working in the office today,and I still have no idea where those ugly old boots are!! I’ll blog ya later, LUVS and HUGS,    Rebecca  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox 

you are still my hero.

Hi. It’s Sunday Jan.25 my dad’s birthday! Miss him especially today. 5 yrs. in Aug. he went to be with God! I wanted to bake a cake for him today and have my mom over for a celebration and she said no. She was going out with some friends from church for lunch. That just made my day. I’m so thankful for her dear friends that she worships with. They are great!! Always there in time of need,as she is for them. Church was great, we went out for lunch instead of my house, this is starting to become the norm, It’s ok,I cook in the evening for everyone. As long as we get together at least once a wk. I’m a happy camper. I am a strong believer in fellowship with my family,and they look forward to coming,not just for the food but it’s a time for everyone to catch up with each other,and find out what’s been going on. They asked me to go to lunch and of all the places to choose from here in Indy, they decided that McDonalds was sounding good. I love McDonalds but I was in the mood for Mexican food. No takers! Sometime this week I will get Mexican, I just went to enjoy them anyway,besides they have the best coffee money can buy!So I had coffee and salad and it was yum. Tonight I’m gonna fire up the grill and have burgers and baked beans and tater salad, kinda like a picnic in January! Yes, it is snowing on the South East side but what the heck! I’ve grilled with tornado sirens going off before!!! LOVE the Grill! Ok. I’m gonna go get cozy and wrap up in my favorite blanky and take a nice nap! Are you jealous? Im gonna dream of my dad dancin in heaven.  LUVS and HUGS, Rebecca  xoxoxoxoxoxo     ~later  coupons? u have to be joking me!

Good night blog. Great day off. Enjoyed it immensely,it was actually calm on the homefront. Had lunch with a friend and hit the gym for a while. Checked my voice mail 37 messages, I know I’m so bad. Made a few calls or 10! Tomorrow will be a cooking day,to get ready for the wk.end. Gotta have food for the wk. end. Several in and out around here.I made brownies ate one and sent them to the neighbors. I don’t kill myself at that darn gym for nothing. If  I must say it myself, it was divine!! YUM! My neighbors loved it ,they seem to be able to eat anything they want and look great. There was a time when I could do that,but not any more. If I eat it…. it will show up somewhere. Kids are all out, rock band at a neighbors, hubby doing an audit for Ramada tonight. Me, well now, I’m blogging and doing some laundry and having a cup of coffee. Plan on reading a bit later,just got out of a hot bubbly bath!! Cherry Bellini bubbles!! Y’all get some great sleep and dream well. LUVS and HUGS galore! Rebecca xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox    ~later  Oh, I almost forgot, Pease pray for my friend Amy. Her 13 yr.old daughter Brianna ran away yesterday. Brianna is a troubled teen and does not seem to be afraid of anyone. Please pray for a safe return and that she will get help.Mom is a mess so please pray for her to feel God’s comfort. thank you so much.

What if  the sun doesn’t come up tomorrow? What if God gives you answers you don’t want to hear? Answers un-acceptable or incomprehensible,answers you can’t begin to wrap your mind around. What if He simply says NO? What if the moon never shines again? What if warm summer breezes seize to ever blow in your face,and rain  disappears and the fields grow dry and our spirits fade? What if  the thunder never roars? What if all the stars grow dim? What if the ocean dries up,and the waves sit down? What if the birds fall from the sky? What if all of wild life becomes extinct?What if love fades to a shadow in the night? What if kisses were non existent? Some things in life (we think) are worth the effort of worry. Other things in life, are here today, gone tomorrow,but some things in life are true,never fading. I guess we choose our battles in the priority of how they affect our personal lives. One thing for sure, God is in total control and He will not let us down or ever leave us in times of laughter or in times of pain. He is Here and Now. Much bigger than any of us or our concerns including our  “What If”s”?    Today, Tomorrow ,and Forever.   LUVS and HUGS,        Rebecca  xo              Matthew 6:34