Ok sooo, it’s Sunday late evening. Went to a Christmas party last night. I was so looking forward to but the atmosphere was quite stuffy. Beautiful venue and amazing food,but very disappointed in the low demeanor of the evening.Haven’t  felt this low in some time. My heart is so heavy. I have so much to be thankful for, a bed, a blanket, heat, food, water, a family, friends, you name it, a saviour and still I have so much hurt inside I can’t breathe. I have a feelin it’s gonna be a long night. Spent alot of time with Jesus this mornin and am asking for His peace to touch my soul. Been keeping myself crazy busy just to keep myself occupied. I have some Tylenol PM and I’m thinking maybe 2 will knock me out for a little while so I can forget about things and just rest. My mind needs to  stop thinking for just a while. If ya’ll have 1 second when you pray this evening ,please mention all of us suffering from deep depression. It’s not a fun place to visit, believe me. Well, the Saint’s all most had their record broken today, the mighty Redskins almost made it happen! Stupid field goals!! Skin’s did an amazing job and should be soooo proud!! ..  Need to go, LUV’S and HUG”S always  Rebecca  xox

SHINE BABY SHINE!!! LUVS n HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    Rebecca,    xox   Prayers.

Well, it took a whole week of down on my knees praying  for God to blow satin’s skirt off and guess what? He did it again!! Lots of apologies and reconciliations raining down and I could just scream I’m so excited.We had a long talk and lots of love and kisses but everything is worked out. Come to find out after hours of heated arguments and lots of lovin and making up, there was no truth to what was thought to be an affair that never happened!!! Praise God!!! Sometimes even when it looks like a chicken and walks like a chicken, it isn’t always a chicken. Speculation and lots of rumors are a very nasty thing!! Breaking apart marriages and friendships and families!! I am not in to drama and quite frankly not good at it. I just have never ever been a fan of drama,and it makes my sick literally!! My heart was just broken and to think I could ever be so stupid as to believe what was being fed embarrasses me. How could I have believed such trash about my sweet and loving friend. He forgives me ,and I  forgive him for screaming and yelling and being…. well,  not himself. It’s over now and friendships have grown closer because of it all. This was a total week from hell!! Praying was the only peace I could find, and once again God proves to be ever so faithful!! Tomorrow night we are going out and hitting Union Station for dinner and then dancing. Whoopee!! Can’t wait!!   I hope all is well with my soldier! I hope we are ready for the  “MONSTER’S on Sunday!! YIKES!! Safety being the topic of prayer and self-confidence!! I so miss my favorite band, I’m going through withdrawal!! Please hurry up and get back here!!! Gotta go, early shopping and lots to do tomorrow . I love Saturday’s and especially Sunday’s!! Worship, family and of course football. Sweet dreams, LUV n HUGS,  Rebecca  xox      ~later 

Good evening blog people, hope all is well!! Having a really hard time today getting past recent really bad news. To be way honest I have had one to many glasses of wine and am feelin a bit numb. My work situation is continuing to get worse. Friends breaking my heart over decisions they are making. The devil being so prominent. It’s so hard watching loved ones screw up their lives and not a thing I can do to help or fix it. It’s so unbelievable, it’s so hard watching the devil in full swing! I don’t know how much more I can take.I hate going in to watch more of his so real presence. I feel so helpless. I want to help but it’s gone on for too long now and it’s out of control. Please if you have one min. I would love a prayer for the truth to be revealed and for action to be taken to stop this ungodly situation. It seems so worthless when these people are so young and determined to live a life of pleasure no matter who they hurt. It’s all about me situation screw the rest of the world attitude. I can’t do any more to try and help without creating more determination on their young minds. They will be so regretful later in life.Sorry there aren’t more positive things to say. I guess it’s alright this is my journal and I need  a place to vent without judgement. Sleep  tight and please… if time pray for young minds to know the Truth.  LUVS and HUGS, Rebecca  x0x ~later

This was one of the worst days I can remember in my entire life. Why? Because I lost a very dear friend and adopted son that I have loved dearly for over a year now. His family is very dear to my heart. Co-worker, confidant, and just someone whom I have  placed on a pedestal ,took off his mask and revealed his true self. Having an affair with another acquaintance of mine. I am just heart broken. He has portrayed himself as an amazing father and husband for so long and I can truly say I loved him for who he  portrayed himself as being. Today he took off the mask and portrayed his “True” self. I am so devastated, I pulled into the driveway this eve. and thew up in the front yard. It’s kinda like a death. A death of a sweet ,dear hearted ,true till the end, faithful friend. I have cried so much my eyes are nearly swollen shut. Who can we trust?  People just don’t value friendships the way that I do. I’m sure I will get over it and move forward but I am soooo blown away. Grieving a death is something that is different for everyone but I have to say I can’t remember feeling so bad in forever. Since my dad passed actually. He is angry with me for knowing the truth. That will surely pass also.  makes it so hard is I work with this person and I pray that God will remove this hate and anger I have in my heart right now. He has a little redheaded little girl who adores him and a precious wife. I just can’t wrap my mind around all of this. I had my suspensions but never thought it would be confirmed. I am praying with all my heart that he will wake up and see how many people he is hurting. God give him your wisdom!! Please help this family realize what they have in each other. He just isn’t thinking straight right now. Pour down Your amazing blessings on him and help him find your guidance ,wisdom and Your peace. And Father help us all understand that this too shall pass. It’s in His precious Name Amen.  LUVS and HUGS , Rebecca   Please pray for Corey and  Rhonda  Ellegood. Thankyou sooooooooo very much, Amen. Oh and also pray that satin finds his fun somewhere else and flees this precious family. thank you , thank you , thank you.

I am so sick of grouchy people I could puke!!! This was such a beautiful day brought by ungrateful and rude people. Why can’t people just realize how blessed they truly are? Instead of noticing the bad stuff, look at the good and positive things in our lives. I believe you can’t say anything nice, keep your trap closed. I’ve heard enough today to last the whole month. Tomorrow will be a better day,looking for some ear plugs. I’m just gonna smile and shake my head all day so I don’t have to listen to it. Be positive and thank God for another day and just pray for His grace and wisdom.  Gettin ready for some football. Patriot’s and the Saint’s. Hmm, who should I cheer for? Not a fan of either team,but should be a heck of a game!!! Gottz ta runz,  LUVS n HUGS,  Rebecca   ~later  ok?  xox  Oh and one more thing, who cares if Tiger wrecked his car or why?? Fight, Drunk, whatever, why do people cares what Mr. Woods is doing with his life… people need to leave him alone!!

Here we go again, another wk end gone. Where does the time go? It was so nice having some time off  for the holiday. Not really ready to get back to the grind,but am so thankful to have a job to go to. If it weren’t for this job the franchise painting co. wouldn’t exist!! So things didn’t turn out the way I had hoped they would today,so much improvement is so encouraging and blow your mind apparent!! Amazing!! Prayers being answered left and right. Church was about living without regret,kinda interesting. Can’t say I agree with the whole thing,I believe we learn and grow and are who we are from our “regrets”. If we don’t have mistakes in our lives how do we grow and learn from them? That would make us all perfect. Right? That’s what makes our maker who He is. Perfect, in every way. Unlike human’s. OK, so I need to get moving and  get things ready for tomorrow. A little glass of wine and a bubble bath are calling my name. I need to go to bed at a descent time, it’s been a great wk end with not much sleep. OH NO, more football just came on Pit. and Bal. I can’t watch,I’ll never get to bed. Tomorrow is a good game,but late also. Patriots and New Orleans. Aw oh!! Stupid field goals!! LUVS and HUGS,  Rebecca xox  Sweet Sweet Sweet Dreams!!

Yippee!!! MUAH!!

Another beautiful day, out and about shopping for some bargains and going to the grocery. Spending the day with hubby and having a blast! Prayers for all those traveling and tomorrow is gonna be a good time! Worship early and then home for some football and party food!! I have a good feelin about this one. Have I said that before? hmm maybe.  No, seriously I feel a win in the making!!YIPPEE. Watching and hoping for the very best!!! Prayers for safety and winning numbers. Praises,  Rebecca xox  ~later maybe Luvs and Hugs Philly or bust!!! :0   hooooot!!      Muah!!

Here we go,let’s roll! Another yr. of blessings and a day to give thanks! Celebration with alot of not so good for you food that will show up later on the scale if we aren’t careful!! The treadmill is gonna be smokin tonight! YIKES!! Lots of people = lots of  chow. Thankful I have some great family to be with today. Praying for those alone or without, holiday’s can be tough time for those suffering. Don’t forget all in our prayers. Oh and of course there will be football. What’s Thanksgiving without football? Enjoy yourselves and love well!! LUVS and HUGS,  Rebecca  xox